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Hey Google set timer for 2 minutes. Monday Gratitude here We Go!

Hey Google set timer for 2 minutes. Monday Gratitude here We Go!

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I’m grateful for parties 

and art shows 

and customers 

and custom orders 

and unexpected engagements 

and the universe off the chain doing things behind the scenes in my face. 

I am also grateful for knowing that if I start to go down a dark path I don’t have to keep going down a dark path. 

Why? I’ll tell you?! I have learned a new way. 

And for that I am grateful beyond measure. 

If I’m standing on the top of a hill in San Francisco and my car begins to roll towards me it’s a lot easier to stop it than if I’m at the bottom of that hill. 

And I used to not know that. 

But I know it now. 

So when I wake up and it’s hard to get out of bed I get up and I get out of bed and what do I do?

 I dance! 

I have two playlists from the 60s and ’70s with Aretha and Lou Rawls and Simon and Garfunkel and The Young Rascals and let me just tell you friends 

it works 

it’s a great antidepressant

and then when I share it, it makes it even more powerful because I know other people get joy from my joy 

and that’s a good infection I’ll tell you that. 

If this is a hard day for you do not shame yourself for that. 

It doesn’t help and whatever it was that created you to begin with 

would never do that to you 

so please don’t do it to yourself. 

I’m grateful that I finally stopped doing that 

and that is time 

but not for the whole day 

just these two minutes

 and the rest of the two minutes between now and bedtime are some I’m going to really look forward to 

and say thank you in advance to the universe for whatever is in store.

Hey Google set timer for 2 minutes 

Hey Google set timer for 2 minutes 

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so right out of the gate I don’t want to go by the two minutes I want to be a rebel and I just might. 

I’m in my reclining bed with the head raised up and the heat on my back and laptop in my lap which is I guess why they call it that and I’m taking care of me. 

And for that I’m eternally grateful. 

There’s been a lot of time spent in bed in my life for things like missing out when other things were happening in the world (this is me being vague about the fact that I spent so many years in the bed with depression.)

So I’ll just say it. There I did. 

That said, today I handle it differently. 

I’m physically not feeling great and that requires body rest and in the winter, body rest resembles body in depression state during the shorter light days of winter. 

So I have my own hybrid recovery from the physical crud I’ve been dealing with for 2 weeks and it looks like this.

I get up and I dance. 

And I work in the art. 

And I create in my mind. 

And I talk to you here. 

And I show up for my gigs. 

And I do it all gently. 

Because if I completely gave in to the physical need 100%, the other stuff waits in the wings and it’s not welcome at this party anymore.

I’m going to say that with all caps even though that won’t capitalize it because I just say it but that’s what I’m saying 

no more no more no more no more 

hit the road hit the road hit the road. 

Now that’s time and I’m not done yet so I’m going to continue for just a moment. 

Hey Google stop. 

But I won’t. Why? 

Because I’m tenacious AF. Just ask my brother.

That’s right. 

I am not caving to the darkness in the cave 

ever 

again. 

And with that I say to you happy damn hump day 

and if you get to do that enjoy it and if not just have a great Wednesday. 

It’s my intention to do the same. I’m going to go make some happy art 

and then I get to go host some trivia later 

and maybe get some real sunshine 

or maybe just sit in front of my full spectrum light 

who knows 

but it’s all my privilege of choice to pick how I assemble my day and I think it’s off to a pretty damn good start.