12-22-22 Gratitude Rant Year In Review

12-22-22 Gratitude Rant Year In Review

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 T’was the night before the night before Christmas  

and Lucinda’s sitting in her apartment in Paradise going to tell you how grateful she is for life.  

And the year that she’s had.  

Let me go month by month as fast as I can  

JANUARY 

very dark  

dark night of the Soul  

FEBRUARY  

went for help  

got it  

MARCH 

light started to come in  

was very obvious it was not a train  

APRIL 

upright  

more  

at the beach  

feet in the sand  

working with people  

loving life  

getting my sea legs back  

MAY 

starting to work with a mentor in England on my memoir  

JUNE 

thriving  

JULY  

thriving even more  

AUGUST 

still thriving in the sunshine of the spirit  

SEPTEMBER 

honing my writing skills  

playing in the sand  

meeting visitors  

loving life  

dancing with friends on the sidewalk  

singing Harmony  

entertaining people from a microphone and a captive audience stance  

OCTOBER 

a dimmer light  

but still warm  

still sunny  

still hopeful  

got some help and it helped  

NOVEMBER  

went back to Oklahoma  

saw people that matter  

came back to Paradise  

had a bit of a bug  

but that didn’t matter  

because my spirit is still high  

DECEMBER 

here we sit  

what a year  

And I’m still here 

FEBRUARY 

I wanted to die and knew how to do it and where to go to make it happen  

DECEMBER 

I want nothing but the very opposite of that in fact I know there’s so much more coming there aren’t enough words and they’re certainly not enough time in these two minutes to tell you but I’m so clear so clear can I just say it again I’m so clear that so much is in gestation with me  

Just look out 2023  

and that’s time but just for now  

so if you’re having a dark day in December  

keep looking forward keep looking up.  

And remember, there’d be no music if there weren’t rest so if you need some take some.  

Love you. 

Lucinda 

Hey Google set timer for 2 minutes. Monday Gratitude here We Go!

Hey Google set timer for 2 minutes. Monday Gratitude here We Go!

I’m grateful for parties 

and art shows 

and customers 

and custom orders 

and unexpected engagements 

and the universe off the chain doing things behind the scenes in my face. 

I am also grateful for knowing that if I start to go down a dark path I don’t have to keep going down a dark path. 

Why? I’ll tell you?! I have learned a new way. 

And for that I am grateful beyond measure. 

If I’m standing on the top of a hill in San Francisco and my car begins to roll towards me it’s a lot easier to stop it than if I’m at the bottom of that hill. 

And I used to not know that. 

But I know it now. 

So when I wake up and it’s hard to get out of bed I get up and I get out of bed and what do I do?

 I dance! 

I have two playlists from the 60s and ’70s with Aretha and Lou Rawls and Simon and Garfunkel and The Young Rascals and let me just tell you friends 

it works 

it’s a great antidepressant

and then when I share it, it makes it even more powerful because I know other people get joy from my joy 

and that’s a good infection I’ll tell you that. 

If this is a hard day for you do not shame yourself for that. 

It doesn’t help and whatever it was that created you to begin with 

would never do that to you 

so please don’t do it to yourself. 

I’m grateful that I finally stopped doing that 

and that is time 

but not for the whole day 

just these two minutes

 and the rest of the two minutes between now and bedtime are some I’m going to really look forward to 

and say thank you in advance to the universe for whatever is in store.

Random Meanderings of a Predawn Mind.

Random Meanderings of a Predawn Mind.

Light bulbs and birthdays and numbers. Oh my!

I bought a fancy light bulb the other day. Says it’ll be good for 13 years. All I could think was I hope I live long enough to buy 2 more.

2 of my dear friends have bookend birthdays on December 12th and 13th. The combined 2 day celebration of those 2 lives has been a delight. My inner child alive and well dancing on sidewalks and making hats out of paper plates alongside others.

It’s a recipe for magic. Because when people go to that place in their brain to create and do it in community, well, to try and describe it would be to try and tell you what a rose smells like. You just have to experience it.

My birthday is January 5th. My inner child has big plans to celebrate. A gathering around a table where people are creating at the same time. Across the street from the Gulf of Mexico.

It’s a recipe for magic. Because when people go to that place in their brain to create and do it in community, well, to try and describe it would be to try and tell you what a rose smells like. You just have to experience it.

I love numbers. And recently have learned a little bit about numerology. I know the number 333 is significant in terms of femininity, creativity and intuition. Many times when I am exploding between the ears with ideas, I will look to see 333 on the clock.

And as for intuition, I am honing in on mine like never before. That is command central for the connection between my soul and the Source that made me and all things.

When I awoke today to see 444 on my phone screen, I had to see what that was all about. And I’m here to tell you that this image and the words on it are true in my house. I am eager for the unfolding that lies ahead. And I feel every bit of it gestating as I speak.

I have created a beautiful life around the act of creating. Paint on a canvas, friends around the table, words on a page. The by-products are happy art, joyful gatherings, and a soul fully expressed.

It’s a recipe for magic. Because when I go to that place in my brain to create, to try and describe it would be to try and tell you what a rose smells like. And I get to experience it.

 Hey Google set timer for 2 minutes-Satitude Gratitude 

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 It’s Saturday I’m awake and I’ve danced and I’ve been to the beach and I’m grateful for all of that  

I’m grateful for do overs and start over and recharges  

and knowing that healing sometimes goes a little bit down before it goes more Up.  

I’m grateful for friends on the beach  

I’m grateful for sand at my back and the warmth of the sun was out of this world on my face!  

Is it December!?! pinch me!  

I’m so grateful that I live here in such a beautiful place where my cat joins me and basks in my full spectrum light at home  

and I’m grateful for Dead to Me reruns and the Blue Ball Lounge on my Christmas tree  

and the path I’m on that is no one else’s but mine that has never been walked on before.  

And knowing that everything’s always working out for me.  

That the universe is conspiring with me for all things good.  

It’s daunting at times and that’s OK because it’s so big in its goodness.  

I love all the things good  

and the sun  

and the light  

and the paint  

and the sound of my cat’s bell while he’s giving himself a bath  

and the day I get to have making art  

and resting  

and talking to friends  

and that’s time but just for these 2 minutes so go make the best of yours.