I’m grateful for parties
and art shows
and custom orders
and unexpected engagements
and the universe off the chain doing things behind the scenes in my face.
I am also grateful for knowing that if I start to go down a dark path I don’t have to keep going down a dark path.
Why? I’ll tell you?! I have learned a new way.
And for that I am grateful beyond measure.
If I’m standing on the top of a hill in San Francisco and my car begins to roll towards me it’s a lot easier to stop it than if I’m at the bottom of that hill.
And I used to not know that.
But I know it now.
So when I wake up and it’s hard to get out of bed I get up and I get out of bed and what do I do?
I have two playlists from the 60s and ’70s with Aretha and Lou Rawls and Simon and Garfunkel and The Young Rascals and let me just tell you friends
it’s a great antidepressant
and then when I share it, it makes it even more powerful because I know other people get joy from my joy
and that’s a good infection I’ll tell you that.
If this is a hard day for you do not shame yourself for that.
It doesn’t help and whatever it was that created you to begin with
would never do that to you
so please don’t do it to yourself.
I’m grateful that I finally stopped doing that
and that is time
but not for the whole day
just these two minutes
and the rest of the two minutes between now and bedtime are some I’m going to really look forward to
and say thank you in advance to the universe for whatever is in store.