so right out of the gate I don’t want to go by the two minutes I want to be a rebel and I just might. 

I’m in my reclining bed with the head raised up and the heat on my back and laptop in my lap which is I guess why they call it that and I’m taking care of me. 

And for that I’m eternally grateful. 

There’s been a lot of time spent in bed in my life for things like missing out when other things were happening in the world (this is me being vague about the fact that I spent so many years in the bed with depression.)

So I’ll just say it. There I did. 

That said, today I handle it differently. 

I’m physically not feeling great and that requires body rest and in the winter, body rest resembles body in depression state during the shorter light days of winter. 

So I have my own hybrid recovery from the physical crud I’ve been dealing with for 2 weeks and it looks like this.

I get up and I dance. 

And I work in the art. 

And I create in my mind. 

And I talk to you here. 

And I show up for my gigs. 

And I do it all gently. 

Because if I completely gave in to the physical need 100%, the other stuff waits in the wings and it’s not welcome at this party anymore.

I’m going to say that with all caps even though that won’t capitalize it because I just say it but that’s what I’m saying 

no more no more no more no more 

hit the road hit the road hit the road. 

Now that’s time and I’m not done yet so I’m going to continue for just a moment. 

Hey Google stop. 

But I won’t. Why? 

Because I’m tenacious AF. Just ask my brother.

That’s right. 

I am not caving to the darkness in the cave 

ever 

again. 

And with that I say to you happy damn hump day 

and if you get to do that enjoy it and if not just have a great Wednesday. 

It’s my intention to do the same. I’m going to go make some happy art 

and then I get to go host some trivia later 

and maybe get some real sunshine 

or maybe just sit in front of my full spectrum light 

who knows 

but it’s all my privilege of choice to pick how I assemble my day and I think it’s off to a pretty damn good start.