Month: December 2022

12-22-22 Gratitude Rant Year In Review

12-22-22 Gratitude Rant Year In Review

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 T’was the night before the night before Christmas  

and Lucinda’s sitting in her apartment in Paradise going to tell you how grateful she is for life.  

And the year that she’s had.  

Let me go month by month as fast as I can  

JANUARY 

very dark  

dark night of the Soul  

FEBRUARY  

went for help  

got it  

MARCH 

light started to come in  

was very obvious it was not a train  

APRIL 

upright  

more  

at the beach  

feet in the sand  

working with people  

loving life  

getting my sea legs back  

MAY 

starting to work with a mentor in England on my memoir  

JUNE 

thriving  

JULY  

thriving even more  

AUGUST 

still thriving in the sunshine of the spirit  

SEPTEMBER 

honing my writing skills  

playing in the sand  

meeting visitors  

loving life  

dancing with friends on the sidewalk  

singing Harmony  

entertaining people from a microphone and a captive audience stance  

OCTOBER 

a dimmer light  

but still warm  

still sunny  

still hopeful  

got some help and it helped  

NOVEMBER  

went back to Oklahoma  

saw people that matter  

came back to Paradise  

had a bit of a bug  

but that didn’t matter  

because my spirit is still high  

DECEMBER 

here we sit  

what a year  

And I’m still here 

FEBRUARY 

I wanted to die and knew how to do it and where to go to make it happen  

DECEMBER 

I want nothing but the very opposite of that in fact I know there’s so much more coming there aren’t enough words and they’re certainly not enough time in these two minutes to tell you but I’m so clear so clear can I just say it again I’m so clear that so much is in gestation with me  

Just look out 2023  

and that’s time but just for now  

so if you’re having a dark day in December  

keep looking forward keep looking up.  

And remember, there’d be no music if there weren’t rest so if you need some take some.  

Love you. 

Lucinda 

Hey Google set timer for 2 minutes. Monday Gratitude here We Go!

Hey Google set timer for 2 minutes. Monday Gratitude here We Go!

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I’m grateful for parties 

and art shows 

and customers 

and custom orders 

and unexpected engagements 

and the universe off the chain doing things behind the scenes in my face. 

I am also grateful for knowing that if I start to go down a dark path I don’t have to keep going down a dark path. 

Why? I’ll tell you?! I have learned a new way. 

And for that I am grateful beyond measure. 

If I’m standing on the top of a hill in San Francisco and my car begins to roll towards me it’s a lot easier to stop it than if I’m at the bottom of that hill. 

And I used to not know that. 

But I know it now. 

So when I wake up and it’s hard to get out of bed I get up and I get out of bed and what do I do?

 I dance! 

I have two playlists from the 60s and ’70s with Aretha and Lou Rawls and Simon and Garfunkel and The Young Rascals and let me just tell you friends 

it works 

it’s a great antidepressant

and then when I share it, it makes it even more powerful because I know other people get joy from my joy 

and that’s a good infection I’ll tell you that. 

If this is a hard day for you do not shame yourself for that. 

It doesn’t help and whatever it was that created you to begin with 

would never do that to you 

so please don’t do it to yourself. 

I’m grateful that I finally stopped doing that 

and that is time 

but not for the whole day 

just these two minutes

 and the rest of the two minutes between now and bedtime are some I’m going to really look forward to 

and say thank you in advance to the universe for whatever is in store.

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Okay gratitude rent Ready set go

happy Friday

so honestly I’m grateful for frustration

why?

because it points me to appreciate when I’m not frustrated

and that maybe saying what I’m grateful for will make it better so here goes.

I am grateful for the window I’m looking through and the blue sky that’s in it

and the sun that’s in that because I get to go out in that today and be with friends and sing and dance and play.

I get to host trivia tonight where people will laugh and maybe dance and have lots of joy and good food

I get to listen to music because I can hear

I get to be with my cat because he’s here

I get to see the lady out my window walking her big yellow dog right now

I get to be free.

If I want to get in my car and go somewhere I can.

I’ve got good food in the fridge.

I can take care of myself.

I’m calling my doctor back because the pneumonia is taking a minute.

I have a daughter who talks to me

I have friends who love me

I am looking forward to what’s coming

and I’m thanking the universe in advance for whatever that might be

today

and Beyond

and I get to make a playlist out of happy upbeat music which is always uplifting

and I get to share what I’m grateful about with you guys and that’s time but just for now so happy Friday.

Random Meanderings of a Predawn Mind.

Random Meanderings of a Predawn Mind.

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Light bulbs and birthdays and numbers. Oh my!

I bought a fancy light bulb the other day. Says it’ll be good for 13 years. All I could think was I hope I live long enough to buy 2 more.

2 of my dear friends have bookend birthdays on December 12th and 13th. The combined 2 day celebration of those 2 lives has been a delight. My inner child alive and well dancing on sidewalks and making hats out of paper plates alongside others.

It’s a recipe for magic. Because when people go to that place in their brain to create and do it in community, well, to try and describe it would be to try and tell you what a rose smells like. You just have to experience it.

My birthday is January 5th. My inner child has big plans to celebrate. A gathering around a table where people are creating at the same time. Across the street from the Gulf of Mexico.

It’s a recipe for magic. Because when people go to that place in their brain to create and do it in community, well, to try and describe it would be to try and tell you what a rose smells like. You just have to experience it.

I love numbers. And recently have learned a little bit about numerology. I know the number 333 is significant in terms of femininity, creativity and intuition. Many times when I am exploding between the ears with ideas, I will look to see 333 on the clock.

And as for intuition, I am honing in on mine like never before. That is command central for the connection between my soul and the Source that made me and all things.

When I awoke today to see 444 on my phone screen, I had to see what that was all about. And I’m here to tell you that this image and the words on it are true in my house. I am eager for the unfolding that lies ahead. And I feel every bit of it gestating as I speak.

I have created a beautiful life around the act of creating. Paint on a canvas, friends around the table, words on a page. The by-products are happy art, joyful gatherings, and a soul fully expressed.

It’s a recipe for magic. Because when I go to that place in my brain to create, to try and describe it would be to try and tell you what a rose smells like. And I get to experience it.

Hey Google set timer for 2 minutes. My Saltwater Canopy Bed

Hey Google set timer for 2 minutes. My Saltwater Canopy Bed

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I’m grateful for these pictures of my favorite canopy bed.

I’m grateful for downtime when early awakenings come.

I’m grateful for my cat

I’m grateful for laundry soap and sheets and sunshine and Sundays and music and singing and dancing and things to do and good food to eat and invitations

And warmth

and discomfort passing

And knowing

and faith

And good feelings

And the fact that everything is always working out for me

And the color blue

and paint and glitter

and windows and doors

and cars and keys

and sequins and earrings and that’s time.

Enjoy yours today.

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 It’s Saturday I’m awake and I’ve danced and I’ve been to the beach and I’m grateful for all of that  

I’m grateful for do overs and start over and recharges  

and knowing that healing sometimes goes a little bit down before it goes more Up.  

I’m grateful for friends on the beach  

I’m grateful for sand at my back and the warmth of the sun was out of this world on my face!  

Is it December!?! pinch me!  

I’m so grateful that I live here in such a beautiful place where my cat joins me and basks in my full spectrum light at home  

and I’m grateful for Dead to Me reruns and the Blue Ball Lounge on my Christmas tree  

and the path I’m on that is no one else’s but mine that has never been walked on before.  

And knowing that everything’s always working out for me.  

That the universe is conspiring with me for all things good.  

It’s daunting at times and that’s OK because it’s so big in its goodness.  

I love all the things good  

and the sun  

and the light  

and the paint  

and the sound of my cat’s bell while he’s giving himself a bath  

and the day I get to have making art  

and resting  

and talking to friends  

and that’s time but just for these 2 minutes so go make the best of yours. 

Hey Google set timer for 2 minutes. Alignment with The Universe and Healing

Hey Google set timer for 2 minutes. Alignment with The Universe and Healing

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Boy am I grateful.
Yesterday I found out I have pneumonia but pneumonia does not have me.

I got all the stuff that starts with P – pneumonia – prednisone – Z pack and the power to heal because that’s what I’m doing and everything I do like this is all part of my healing in every aspect .
I ordered my grocery delivery from instacart. I live on a 3rd floor and it’s a walk up.
There are several apartments with my number on them because they’re several buildings here.
The picture of my pedialyte and Cayenne Pepper in those cute little bags in front of someone else’s door was not a happy moment on the app, but one I was planning to overcome, as I sat on hold for the guy who was going to do my refund. I was getting dressed to go to the store…

HOWEVER the universe is working in my favor in the form of Anthony who got on the call from somewhere I’m guessing in the tropics based on his lilting accent and his smile on the phone.

My soul talked to his and I shared my age too and he said, “You do not sound like your age, if you hadn’t told me that. You have a young spirit.”
I proceeded to share with him that I also had a 3rd floor walk up and was 20 years out from cancer so it takes me a minute to recover from cooties and grocery delivery was great for me not to have to go out. Well he heard me and I know that the universe was conspiring on my behalf because before he took my call, I was left to understand that going to the store would be my fastest option. But this young man with a big smile was like”Wow. You are survivor.” I said “you’re d*** right!”

It turned into a pep rally on the phone, putting wind in my sail. He arranged a redelivery, which I did not know was an option, making it a priority and gave me a $10 credit for my next order.

Had I been grumpy which believe me I am about not feeling good inside but had I stayed in that and taken it out on him things could have gone so differently. Well that’s time and I’m just so grateful I have more ahead of me that’s filled with wellness and joy and going and doing and painting and being in living and splashing. Happy Thursday everybody! Yea Instacart!

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so right out of the gate I don’t want to go by the two minutes I want to be a rebel and I just might. 

I’m in my reclining bed with the head raised up and the heat on my back and laptop in my lap which is I guess why they call it that and I’m taking care of me. 

And for that I’m eternally grateful. 

There’s been a lot of time spent in bed in my life for things like missing out when other things were happening in the world (this is me being vague about the fact that I spent so many years in the bed with depression.)

So I’ll just say it. There I did. 

That said, today I handle it differently. 

I’m physically not feeling great and that requires body rest and in the winter, body rest resembles body in depression state during the shorter light days of winter. 

So I have my own hybrid recovery from the physical crud I’ve been dealing with for 2 weeks and it looks like this.

I get up and I dance. 

And I work in the art. 

And I create in my mind. 

And I talk to you here. 

And I show up for my gigs. 

And I do it all gently. 

Because if I completely gave in to the physical need 100%, the other stuff waits in the wings and it’s not welcome at this party anymore.

I’m going to say that with all caps even though that won’t capitalize it because I just say it but that’s what I’m saying 

no more no more no more no more 

hit the road hit the road hit the road. 

Now that’s time and I’m not done yet so I’m going to continue for just a moment. 

Hey Google stop. 

But I won’t. Why? 

Because I’m tenacious AF. Just ask my brother.

That’s right. 

I am not caving to the darkness in the cave 

ever 

again. 

And with that I say to you happy damn hump day 

and if you get to do that enjoy it and if not just have a great Wednesday. 

It’s my intention to do the same. I’m going to go make some happy art 

and then I get to go host some trivia later 

and maybe get some real sunshine 

or maybe just sit in front of my full spectrum light 

who knows 

but it’s all my privilege of choice to pick how I assemble my day and I think it’s off to a pretty damn good start.

I Feel Funny

I Feel Funny

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Okay here’s what I’m grateful for today. 

I feel funny. I have felt funny for over two weeks now so I’ve decided that feeling my funny is the way to get over feeling funny. 

Because some feeling funny isn’t funny. 

I love funny memes and I’m thankful for those and my cat who’s playing with one of his balls which is really funny because he doesn’t have any balls. 

I’m thankful for Lou Rawls that rhymes with balls who knew! 

Thankful for Facebook friends 

and family 

and friends who don’t let friends shop at chain stores 

and memes 

did I mention memes? 

And funny videos 

and how to engage with the world when you’re stuck in your apartment because you can’t go outside.

That sounded whiny. 

I didn’t mean to sound whiny I meant to sound grateful cuz that’s what I am. 

I’m grateful for the fact that my voice is coming back because that’s important. 

Although I’ve said to many people many times I’d happily Go mute if I could communicate with the gif. 

My daughter would laugh at that 

She said “Mom, you say on the line, when it’s online.” 

It’s okay if she laughs because she thinks I’m funny 

and if she thinks I’m funny then she’s laughing

and I like it when my daughter laughs. 

It makes me happy. 

And happy is what it’s all about. 

It took me more than 20 minutes to learn that one. 

So it’s tuesday. 

And I do feel funny. 

Steve Martin said that when he put baloney in his shoes, it made him feel funny. 

I’m not going to do that I don’t like shoes cuz I live at the beach 

but you can put bologna in your shoes today if you want to. 

It’s still not over these two minutes isn’t this great? 

I’m still talking and thinking about what I’m grateful for and one of them is an open window and an eye that can see through it 

and the air that I can feel 

and the limbs that work 

and the cancer I don’t have 

and that is time but just for these two minutes 

so happy Tuesday everybody.

What I Like about Monday 12-5-2022

What I Like about Monday 12-5-2022

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What do I like about Monday? 

Here’s what I like about Monday. 

Monday at my house is my day.

The rest of them are too just between you and me. 

But on this Monday, I have a plan 

and my plan is full of fun 

and full of Art 

and full of life 

and full of salt water 

and sand and sunshine 

and blue skies and 70° days 

and people and music and laughter and microphones 

and entertaining and health and good food 

and painted denim and pretty pictures 

and so many things I could go on and on but you know I’ve only got 2 minutes so I’ll just say this. 

Monday doesn’t have to be a grindstone return for you. 

Monday can be a kick-ass and take names day. 

I know this because last night when I went to bed I felt very not well after 10 days of some of that 

and when I woke up feeling a little bit better than that 

my attitude got shifted by me into one of solution 

and happiness 

and what brings me joy 

and what do I have the energy for today 

and all of those categories. 

So I began my day with a dance 

and a plan for the month 

and goals 

and coffee and biscuits 

and a full spectrum lamp in my face 

and my cat 

and my feet and the door open and the breeze over the bay at my ear 

and that’s time but not forever just for now so go enjoy the hell out of your Monday. Love you!